Tag Archives: Grief

Now what?

Being a mid-life “orphan” is disorienting. As I contemplate what I want to do for the rest of my life, who I want to be, I realize how much time I spend looking over my shoulder for objections, judgments, or … Continue reading

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From black holes to pits

I haven’t written about depression in a while. I’ve been acting as if I’d kicked it. Two years ago, deciding I was good to go, I ditched the meds. Drug free head, and all that. But depression isn’t a mind-over-matter … Continue reading

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Relections on One Hundred Days

Today is my one hundredth day booze-free. The quit has been a lot easier than I thought it would be. And a lot better. My big takeaway: I like not drinking alcohol. I like being clear-headed all the time. I … Continue reading

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Sobriety is a Yawner

For today’s back-yard birding photo, I bring you the Blue Jay. Larger than most bird-feeder birds, Blue Jays are noisy and aggressive. They’re also fairly comedic and fun to watch. You’ll notice this Blue Jay had lowered his crest, which … Continue reading

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Desperate Times Call for Desperate Measures

I’ve been worried about myself. My weight continues to creep up. I’ve been drinking two to four glasses of wine (or gin and tonics) nearly every evening. Sometimes more on the weekends. Walking, yoga, and meditation have been sporadic. I’ve … Continue reading

Posted in Abusive Relationships, Addiction, Alcoholism, Alzheimer's, Birds, Body Love, Death and Grief, Dementia, Depression, Domestic Violence, Elderly Parents, Family Business, Getting Unstuck, Healing, Health, Intervention, Lawyer, Living Life, Meditation/Mindfulness, Mid-Life, Nature, Photography, Sobriety, walking | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 20 Comments

Waiting to Exhale

I posted a status on Facebook last night at around 8:30 pm: “Almost. Just a few more hours. I’m not going to say anything more, lest I jinx us.” Which apparently was enough to set off a giant sobbing jag. … Continue reading

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Sophie the Strange

It’s been nearly two years since Sophie-the-formerly-stray cat entered my life, and twenty months since she entered my home. It’s official–she’s an odd little cat. Before I get to her oddities, here are three photos from today’s shoot. She’s quite … Continue reading

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Looking at Rocks

I’ve been home from the family cabin on Lake Superior for five days. My mind had been like the lake when it’s filled with silt–cloudy, murky, particles swirling around, obscuring from view the rocks on the bottom. I’ve settled. The silt is gone. The … Continue reading

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Gitche Gumee

I just returned from a short trip to my father’s cabin on Lake Superior in Northern Ontario. The last time I was up in August 2011, my father and brothers were still alive. My parents went up every summer in … Continue reading

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The Fruits of Mindless Living

I’ve gained 48 pounds since my dad died in October 2012. Nearly 50 pounds. Who gains that much weight in what feels like overnight? I suppose 48 pounds in 20 months isn’t overnight; it’s 2.4 pounds per month. A slow, … Continue reading

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