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The more things change . . .
Two years ago, as my mother was dying from Alzheimer’s, I wondered how my life would be different once she was gone. I felt as if I was suspended between my life before the deaths of my nuclear family, and … Continue reading
Now what?
Being a mid-life “orphan” is disorienting. As I contemplate what I want to do for the rest of my life, who I want to be, I realize how much time I spend looking over my shoulder for objections, judgments, or … Continue reading
Better Living Through Science
I take back every bad thing I ever said about antidepressants. OK, maybe not everything. Abilify did make my hair fall out. Viibryd gave me sleestak dreams. Wellbutrin plugged me up until I began looking like a snake who’d swallowed … Continue reading
Posted in Alcoholism, Antidepressants, BigLaw, Brintellix, Cats, CKD Cat, Death and Grief, Deplin, Depression, Grief, Prediabetes, Subcutaneous Fluids
Tagged Abilify, Alcoholism, Antidepressants, Brintellix, Chronic Kidney Disease Cats, CKD Cat, Colonic, Colonoscopy, Deplin, Depression, diabetes, Health, LCHF, Low-carb high-fat, Mammogram, Prediabetes, Reversing prediabetes, Sobriety, Sub-Q Fluids Cat, Subcutaneous Fluids Cats, Texas Capitol, type 2 diabetes, Viibryd, Wellbutrin
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From black holes to pits
I haven’t written about depression in a while. I’ve been acting as if I’d kicked it. Two years ago, deciding I was good to go, I ditched the meds. Drug free head, and all that. But depression isn’t a mind-over-matter … Continue reading
Posted in Antidepressants, Brintellix, Death of a sibling, Depression, Grief, Health
Tagged Antidepressants, Brintellix, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Depression, Grief, Health, mental-health
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Relections on One Hundred Days
Today is my one hundredth day booze-free. The quit has been a lot easier than I thought it would be. And a lot better. My big takeaway: I like not drinking alcohol. I like being clear-headed all the time. I … Continue reading
For Steve
Two years ago today, my brother Steve died of acute myelogenous leukemia at age 52. Three days shy of getting his 90-Day sobriety chip. While the cause of death officially was cancer, in actuality it was alcoholism. The alcohol killed … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Alcoholism, Animal Rescue, Cats, Death and Grief, Sobriety, Sophie
Tagged 100-Day Sober Challenge, Acute myelogenous leukemia, Acute myeloid leukemia, Addiction, Alcohol, Alcoholism, Animal Rescue, animals, cancer, Cats, Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Sobriety
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Desperate Times Call for Desperate Measures
I’ve been worried about myself. My weight continues to creep up. I’ve been drinking two to four glasses of wine (or gin and tonics) nearly every evening. Sometimes more on the weekends. Walking, yoga, and meditation have been sporadic. I’ve … Continue reading
Posted in Abusive Relationships, Addiction, Alcoholism, Alzheimer's, Birds, Body Love, Death and Grief, Dementia, Depression, Domestic Violence, Elderly Parents, Family Business, Getting Unstuck, Healing, Health, Intervention, Lawyer, Living Life, Meditation/Mindfulness, Mid-Life, Nature, Photography, Sobriety, walking
Tagged 100-Day Sober Challenge, Abusive Relationships, Alcoholism, Birds, Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Depression, Grief, HAES, Health, Health At Every Size, healthy-living, Lightroom, mental-health, Narcissism, Narcissist, nature, Nikon, Nikon D3200, outdoors, Photography, Sobriety
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The Problem
In her book, Writing Is My Drink–A Writer’s Story of Finding Her Voice (and a Guide to How You Can Too), Theo Nestor talks about the “resonant narrative.” Theo makes the important point that writers whom we admire are those … Continue reading
Posted in Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Elderly Parents, Forgiveness, Grief, Health, Memoir, Writing
Tagged Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Elderly Parents, Estrangement, Healing, Love, Mary Karr, Memoir, Mid-Life, Reconciliation, Sexual Abuse, Theo Pauline Nestor, Writing, Writing Is My Drink
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