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Category Archives: Grieving
Beach Houses and Dog Bowls
Being alive is weird. I’m sure being dead is weird, too. Or maybe not. Maybe your consciousness is dead along with your body and so there’s nothing left of you to witness whether being dead is weird, or not. But … Continue reading
Posted in Alcoholism, Alzheimer's, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Dementia, Elderly Parents, Galveston, Grief, Grieving, Love, Mid-Life, Moving On
Tagged Alcoholism, Alzheimer's, beach house, Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Dementia, Dogs, Grief, Grieving, Living Life, Love, Mid-Life
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Ella of Arc
A couple of weeks ago, I went to a writers’ retreat on Orcas Island taught by memoirist, Theo Nestor. It was a momentous four days. Four days of clearing the hurdles I’d constructed between me and writing my story. I thought, having cleared … Continue reading
Posted in Animal Rescue, Cats, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Grief, Grieving, Memoir, Sophie, Writing
Tagged Animal Rescue, animals, Cats, Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Grief, Grieving, Memoir, Orcas Island, Stray Cat, Stray Cats, Theo Nestor, Theo Pauline Nestor, Writing, Writing Retreat
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Seven Days
I’ve spent my nights since I returned from Houston drinking wine, eating, and watching Downton Abbey with my neighbor. I keep referring to it as Downtown Abbey. My English neighbor corrects me but I’m too tired to remember my error. … Continue reading
Posted in Alcoholism, Cats, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Grieving, Health, Leukemia, Mid-Life, Sobriety
Tagged Acute myelogenous leukemia, Acute myeloid leukemia, Alcoholism, cancer, Cats, chronic myelogenous leukemia, Cinque Terre, Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Father, Grief, Grieving, Health, Intervention, leukemia, Love, Mid-Life, Photography, Sibling, Sobriety, Stages of Grief, Tuscany
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Not a creature was stirring, not even an asshole.
What a fucked up Christmas Eve. One of my nephews, the son of my deceased brother, stopped by briefly to pick up his brother (now living in my mom’s garage apartment, along with the son of my alcoholic brother) on … Continue reading
Posted in Alcoholism, Death of a sibling, Grief, Grieving
Tagged Alcoholism, christmas eve, Death of a sibling, Family, Grief, Health, holidays
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It’s time.
I’ve been avoiding the page. Hiding from the depths of my grief. Doing anything to pass the time, but write. I know that writing will take me deeper than even looking at photos of my father. I fear the writing … Continue reading
Posted in Alzheimer's, Death and Grief, Dementia, Elderly Parents, Grief, Grieving, Healing, Love, Stages of Grief
Tagged Alzheimer's, Death and Grief, Grief, Grieving, Love, Stages of Grief
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On the sixth day, the sun rose.
It’s been twenty-four days. And still, I’m raw. My father hadn’t eaten or had any fluids for four days, and even then it was minimal. I found myself Googling how long a person can live without water. The consensus seemed … Continue reading
Posted in Alzheimer's, Death and Grief, Dementia, Grief, Grieving, Love
Tagged Alzheimer's, Death and Grief, Dementia, Grief, Hospice, Love
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