Category Archives: Stages of Grief

Please Send Cupcakes

Here’s the thing about grief: one minute you’re drowning in it, thinking you’ll never resurface. And the next, up you’ve popped and you’re feeing the sun on your face. My moods seem to change on a dime. Right now, the … Continue reading

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I only like cats.

Right now, I hate everything except my cats. And food, particularly ice cream. And wine. And mindless tv. And sleep. Aside from those things, everything is stupid. Rather than piss and moan about my grief, and I happen to be … Continue reading

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Ramble On

All of my male family members are gone. In the space of 11 months. How do I make sense of this? I don’t. There is no meaning or explanation. Everything does not happen for a reason. It just happens. This … Continue reading

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Might I be human, after all?

I was thinking about grief the other day. Thinking my grief over my brother’s and father’s deaths last year didn’t last long. The crying wasn’t overwhelmingly intense. Or at least it wasn’t more than a handful of times. I wondered … Continue reading

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It’s time.

I’ve been avoiding the page. Hiding from the depths of my grief. Doing anything to pass the time, but write. I know that writing will take me deeper than even looking at photos of my father. I fear the writing … Continue reading

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Vigil

The sun is beginning to rise following the third night of my vigil. The days spent in my father’s Hospice room with family and friends are precious. But it is the nights I spend alone with him that I find … Continue reading

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Inpatient Hospice

Dad is now in inpatient hospice. We moved just down the hall from his rehab room at the nursing home. Hospice has a small wing here, so the move was only minimally stressful. Yesterday, before the hospice room was ready, … Continue reading

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Coming Home

My mother is a strong, brave woman. She set aside her desire to have my father here a little longer, and decided against the feeding tube. She said he wouldn’t have wanted it.But when we met with hospice, she couldn’t … Continue reading

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Hospice

My Dad is dying. I spoke with the doctor today. He’d be gone within days, but my mother and siblings want a feeding tube. For now. So I pretended I want it, too. But I told them I’m worried “for … Continue reading

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Fat Cat

The past couple of days, ever since I discovered Sally’s lumps, I have been filled with anxiety. When I wasn’t working, I was scouring the Internet for the tumor that most resembled Sally’s. None of them seemed to quite fit. … Continue reading

Posted in Cancer, Cats, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Grief, Grieving, Healing, Love, Stages of Grief | Tagged , , , , , , , , | 15 Comments