Tag Archives: Addiction

For Steve

Posted on March 25, 2015 by

Two years ago today, my brother Steve died of acute myelogenous leukemia at age 52. Three days shy of getting his 90-Day sobriety chip. While the cause of death officially was cancer, in actuality it was alcoholism. The alcohol killed … Continue reading →

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On Coping. Or Not.

Posted on April 26, 2013 by

I’m on a flight to Chicago. It’s an all weekend work rah-rah session. That means 48 hours with hundreds of lawyers. Lawyers drinking, bullshitting, and pontificating. Each one playing the power role, trying to impress. Needless to say, I’m not … Continue reading →

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Discourage

Posted on March 20, 2013 by

Discourage 1. to deprive of courage, hope, or confidence; dishearten; dispirit My eldest brother died last year in April of complications from alcoholism. Almost a year ago, now. My father died in October. On December 28, 2012, not wanting to … Continue reading →

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Evolution

Posted on February 28, 2013 by

I follow a lot of blogs written by alcoholics in recovery. According to my therapist, and by my own assessment, I am not an alcoholic. I am an abuser of alcohol, however. No one has told me this; they don’t … Continue reading →

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Blame

Posted on February 7, 2013 by

Still no break in my mother’s silence. I guess if we’ve learned anything, it’s that she didn’t need to talk with me every night as she claimed, after all. I’m feeling a bit down. I lost my father. And now … Continue reading →

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On Self Care

Posted on February 3, 2013 by

My mother hasn’t spoken to me for nearly two weeks due to my attempt at setting boundaries with her and suggesting she attend Al-Anon meetings. Having spent the past 58 years with an alcoholic husband (who died nearly four months … Continue reading →

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Inspired By My Brother

Posted on January 18, 2013 by

Last night we had an open house at my office. Open house. Open bar. I had several glasses of wine. When I drink now, I feel guilty. Toward the end of the evening, one of my co-workers and I went … Continue reading →

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Why not me?

Posted on January 17, 2013 by

Recently my boss and I were talking about my brothers’ alcoholism. I had taken a day to attend my brother’s intervention and I was telling him how it went. “I thought your brother with alcoholism died in April.” “They’re both … Continue reading →

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The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly.

Posted on January 11, 2013 by

My brother has been in rehab two weeks today. From all accounts, he’s doing well. He’s not complaining. He’s not in a hurry to get out. He’s going to meetings and learning. He told his daughter he’s never going to … Continue reading →

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