Tag Archives: Mid-Life

Now what?

Being a mid-life “orphan” is disorienting. As I contemplate what I want to do for the rest of my life, who I want to be, I realize how much time I spend looking over my shoulder for objections, judgments, or … Continue reading

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Death by Chocolate

I drove to Houston Mother’s Day weekend for the second (and last) weekend of the estate sale. Mom’s been ill with another infection; one that has hit her especially hard. The new antibiotic, injectable Rocephin, was started on Friday before … Continue reading

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In-Between Christmas

Yesterday was the first Christmas morning I have awakened in my own bed in sixteen years. I had planned to sleep in my parents’ bed in the home they lived in for nearly forty years. No one is living in … Continue reading

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The In-Between

in-between : a state or position that is in the middle between two other things : a middle position Merriam-Webster.com. Merriam-Webster, n.d. Web. 13 Dec. 2015. Transitions are excruciating. Sitting. Waiting. Seemingly stuck in the current place and longing for … Continue reading

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A Disney Thanksgiving

As I was watching Tarzan with my mother in her hospital room on Thanksgiving, I was struck by this scene: Jane Porter, supporting herself between two branches, where she is stuck. “It can’t get any worse, can it?” she asks. … Continue reading

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Permission to Stop Drinking

A couple of years back, I wrote a post entitled, “Am I an alcoholic?” I don’t think I am, so I kept drinking. Since then, I’ve googled the hell out of things like: Reasons to quit drinking even if you’re … Continue reading

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My Current Reality Bites

I’ve spent the past few days hunkered down, recovering from the holidays. I’ve stayed in bed until nearly noon the past three days, surrounded by cats. My refuge from reality. My trip to Houston was overwhelming. I arrived to pick … Continue reading

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The Problem

In her book, Writing Is My Drink–A Writer’s Story of Finding Her Voice (and a Guide to How You Can Too), Theo Nestor talks about the “resonant narrative.” Theo makes the important point that writers whom we admire are those … Continue reading

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Looking at Rocks

I’ve been home from the family cabin on Lake Superior for five days. My mind had been like the lake when it’s filled with silt–cloudy, murky, particles swirling around, obscuring from view the rocks on the bottom. I’ve settled. The silt is gone. The … Continue reading

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Enjoy Spite

According to dictionary.com, “spiteful implies a mean or malicious desire for (often petty) revenge.” Recently, I had that desire. I’d been working in the garden in the morning, trying to dig up the bastard trumpet vine that would not die. The … Continue reading

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