Tag Archives: Depression

Viibryd Valedicition

It’s been nine days since I took my last dose of Viibryd. This post is a detailed account of what led me to this decision (it’s the side effects, stupid), how I stopped taking the drug, and my withdrawal experience. Because … Continue reading

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Bilberry Jam

When my oldest brother died, I handled it. I emailed my boss: “My brother died. I knew it was inevitable. I’m fine. I’ll be in tomorrow.” When the shock wore off, I wasn’t exactly fine. I took a few days … Continue reading

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Tug of War

I’ve been thinking a lot about “letting go” in the context of loss. Specifically, the loss of my father and both brothers; all the male members of my family, within eleven months. The deaths happened in such quick succession. My … Continue reading

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On Coping. Or Not.

I’m on a flight to Chicago. It’s an all weekend work rah-rah session. That means 48 hours with hundreds of lawyers. Lawyers drinking, bullshitting, and pontificating. Each one playing the power role, trying to impress. Needless to say, I’m not … Continue reading

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Running Through Concrete

I forced myself into my running shoes yesterday for the first time since the day before my brother died. It was a beautiful spring day in Austin. I knew I should get outside. What I really wanted to do was … Continue reading

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I only like cats.

Right now, I hate everything except my cats. And food, particularly ice cream. And wine. And mindless tv. And sleep. Aside from those things, everything is stupid. Rather than piss and moan about my grief, and I happen to be … Continue reading

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What’s In A Name?

A journal by any other word would be as true. Or would it? What if you called it a blog? Blogging is odd. When I first started, I had no idea what it was about. I wrote and wrote and … Continue reading

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2013 Antidepressant Update

I went to see Dr. McEnroe yesterday. It’s been thirteen months since he put me on antidepressants. Placebo or not, they’ve done wonders. Thirteen months ago I was over 40 pounds heavier than I am now. I showed up at … Continue reading

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I Day

Tomorrow is D Day.  Or I Day. I drive back to Houston in the morning to meet with the interventionist. Also present will be my mother, my brother’s adult children (in their 20s), and a dear friend that has worked … Continue reading

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Antidepressant Update

The most frequent searches leading people to my blog involve pedophiles and depression medication. It amazes me how many people out there are married to, or know, a pedophile. But I will save that post for another day. Today, it’s about the … Continue reading

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