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Tag Archives: Stages of Grief
Please Send Cupcakes
Here’s the thing about grief: one minute you’re drowning in it, thinking you’ll never resurface. And the next, up you’ve popped and you’re feeing the sun on your face. My moods seem to change on a dime. Right now, the … Continue reading
Posted in Mid-Life, Stages of Grief
Tagged Birthday, Cupcakes, Death and Grief, Stages of Grief
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Bilberry Jam
When my oldest brother died, I handled it. I emailed my boss: “My brother died. I knew it was inevitable. I’m fine. I’ll be in tomorrow.” When the shock wore off, I wasn’t exactly fine. I took a few days … Continue reading
On Coping. Or Not.
I’m on a flight to Chicago. It’s an all weekend work rah-rah session. That means 48 hours with hundreds of lawyers. Lawyers drinking, bullshitting, and pontificating. Each one playing the power role, trying to impress. Needless to say, I’m not … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Alcoholism, Death and Grief, Intervention, Leukemia, Running, Sobriety, walking
Tagged Addiction, Alcoholism, cancer, Coping, Coping mechanism, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Depression, exercise, Grief, Grieving, Health, healthy-living, Intervention, leukemia, mental-health, outdoors, Running, Sobriety, Stages of Grief, Walking
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Running Through Concrete
I forced myself into my running shoes yesterday for the first time since the day before my brother died. It was a beautiful spring day in Austin. I knew I should get outside. What I really wanted to do was … Continue reading
Posted in Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Grief, Healing, Health, Nature
Tagged Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Depression, Grief, Grieving, Health, healthy-living, mental-health, nature, outdoors, Running, Stages of Grief, Walking
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Seven Days
I’ve spent my nights since I returned from Houston drinking wine, eating, and watching Downton Abbey with my neighbor. I keep referring to it as Downtown Abbey. My English neighbor corrects me but I’m too tired to remember my error. … Continue reading
Posted in Alcoholism, Cats, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Grieving, Health, Leukemia, Mid-Life, Sobriety
Tagged Acute myelogenous leukemia, Acute myeloid leukemia, Alcoholism, cancer, Cats, chronic myelogenous leukemia, Cinque Terre, Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Father, Grief, Grieving, Health, Intervention, leukemia, Love, Mid-Life, Photography, Sibling, Sobriety, Stages of Grief, Tuscany
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Ramble On
All of my male family members are gone. In the space of 11 months. How do I make sense of this? I don’t. There is no meaning or explanation. Everything does not happen for a reason. It just happens. This … Continue reading
Posted in Alcoholism, Cancer, Cats, Death of a sibling, Grief, Health, Intervention, Mid-Life, Sobriety, Stages of Grief
Tagged Acute myelogenous leukemia, Acute myeloid leukemia, Alcoholism, AML, cancer, Death, Death of a sibling, Grief, Grieving, Health, Intervention, leukemia, Philosophy, Stages of Grief
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Might I be human, after all?
I was thinking about grief the other day. Thinking my grief over my brother’s and father’s deaths last year didn’t last long. The crying wasn’t overwhelmingly intense. Or at least it wasn’t more than a handful of times. I wondered … Continue reading
