I didn’t feel a thing.

I received an email from Mack the other day telling me he’d sent me the final payment. But instead of just telling me he’d sent the final payment, he continued with a long drawn-out emotional message about various and sundry things; things I don’t feel compelled to spend typing strokes on here. He did say we have no need to contact one another again. Ever. So I guess that means he’ll stop trying to hook me with emotional emails. Oh wait. Maybe not. What was the next thing in my inbox? You got it: another email from Mack. This one included a song he recorded. Apparently about me. I’m not sure though, because I didn’t listen to it.

So how did this final spate of emails make me feel?

I didn’t feel sad. I didn’t feel angry. I didn’t feel regret. I did feel a slight bit of irritation, but not enough to color my day. And I felt relief.

Dare I say it?

About UB Ella

UB Ella (f/k/a Unconfirmed Bachelorette) is a 50-something recovered lawyer who left the practice of law to embrace a full-time writing life. Never-married, child-free Ella resides in Austin, Texas and Ontario, Canada with her four bad cats.
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13 Responses to I didn’t feel a thing.

  1. free penny press says:

    Didn’t I tell you a few months back that the day would come when all you feel is “nothing”..that sweet, blessed open air space of nothing. 🙂


  2. Phoenix says:

    Yay for freedom! I smiled so much when I read this. There may be relapses along the way but I’m seriously impressed at your strength in not listening to that music file :~)


  3. Good for your! I am exactly where you are. Tomorrow will hopefully be the last time I see Ex to finalize a business deal. I cannot wait to just get it over with and be totally free of him!


  4. Free is amazing! So happy for you!


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