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Gitche Gumee
I just returned from a short trip to my father’s cabin on Lake Superior in Northern Ontario. The last time I was up in August 2011, my father and brothers were still alive. My parents went up every summer in … Continue reading
Posted in Alzheimer's, Canada, Death and Grief, Dementia, Elderly Parents, Grief, Healing, Lake Superior, Nature, Ontario, Travel
Tagged Alzheimer's, Birds, Canada, Chipmunks, Death, Death and Grief, Dementia, Elderly Parents, Family, Father, Gitche Gumee, Grief, Grieving, Lake Superior, Loons, mental-health, nature, Ontario, outdoors, Photography, Travel, vacation
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Beach Houses and Dog Bowls
Being alive is weird. I’m sure being dead is weird, too. Or maybe not. Maybe your consciousness is dead along with your body and so there’s nothing left of you to witness whether being dead is weird, or not. But … Continue reading
Posted in Alcoholism, Alzheimer's, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Dementia, Elderly Parents, Galveston, Grief, Grieving, Love, Mid-Life, Moving On
Tagged Alcoholism, Alzheimer's, beach house, Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Dementia, Dogs, Grief, Grieving, Living Life, Love, Mid-Life
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Ella of Arc
A couple of weeks ago, I went to a writers’ retreat on Orcas Island taught by memoirist, Theo Nestor. It was a momentous four days. Four days of clearing the hurdles I’d constructed between me and writing my story. I thought, having cleared … Continue reading
Posted in Animal Rescue, Cats, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Grief, Grieving, Memoir, Sophie, Writing
Tagged Animal Rescue, animals, Cats, Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Grief, Grieving, Memoir, Orcas Island, Stray Cat, Stray Cats, Theo Nestor, Theo Pauline Nestor, Writing, Writing Retreat
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Right here, right now.
I’ve been avoiding the page for the past two weeks because I haven’t wanted to deal with life head on. The year anniversary of the death of my brother was a couple of weeks ago–March 25. I took the day … Continue reading
Posted in Alzheimer's, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Dementia, Elderly Parents, Flowers, Grief, Hiking, Nature, Photography
Tagged Alzheimer's, animals, Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Dementia, Goats, Grief, Grieving, Health, Hiking, Llamas, nature, outdoors, Pedernales State Park, Photography, Texas Bluebonnets, Texas Hill Country
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Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea
Another surreal Christmas has drawn to a close. Over the past several days, I’ve been trying to think back to a time when Christmas wasn’t weird. When it was happy and normal. Maybe they were never happy and normal. But I get glimpses of … Continue reading
Posted in Death and Grief, Mid-Life
Tagged Alcoholism, Alzheimer's, Christmas, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Family, Grief, Grieving, Holiday, Mid-Life, Mother, Sibling
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Baby cat, it’s cold outside.
It’s in the 20s and 30s in Austin. Just a few days ago, it was in the 80s. I’m lounging on the sofa covered in a faux fur throw, a pot of Bolognese simmering on the stove. (Less than 2 … Continue reading
Posted in Cats, Death and Grief, Sophie
Tagged Animal Rescue, animals, Cat, Cats, Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Grief, Grieving, Pets, Stray Cat
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Great Bear Rainforest Day 2
Journal entry for Day 2 of my Great Bear Rainforest adventure: September 3, 2013 Tuesday Crossing the Hardy Entrance I awoke to the sound of the engine starting. Last night, the cove in which we anchored was like glass, the pine-covered … Continue reading
Restoring My Soul
I’m lying on the sofa in baby cat’s room. She’s cuddled up to me, purring, as I write. If I go too long without petting her or kissing her head, she presses her wet nose into my arm. The little … Continue reading
Posted in Great Bear Rainforest, Grief, Nature, Sophie, Travel
Tagged Alaska, Animal Rescue, animals, Bella Bella British Columbia, Canada, Cats, Death, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Great Bear Rainforest, Grief, Grieving, Grizzly Bears, leukemia, mental-health, nature, Nursing home, Ontario, outdoors, Rainforest, Sailing, Spirit Bear, Stray Cat, Travel, white spirit bear
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Mine goes to eleven.
I’ve been 50 for 7 days. Today is the last day of my birthday. Yes, I decided that my 50th birthday celebration was to run from Friday May 17 through Memorial weekend this year. Eleven days. Throughout the eleven days, … Continue reading
Posted in Alcoholism, Death of a sibling
Tagged 50th Birthday, Alcoholism, birthday celebration, Death and Grief, Death of a sibling, Grief, Grieving, Health, Intervention, leukemia, Love, Mid-Life
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Bilberry Jam
When my oldest brother died, I handled it. I emailed my boss: “My brother died. I knew it was inevitable. I’m fine. I’ll be in tomorrow.” When the shock wore off, I wasn’t exactly fine. I took a few days … Continue reading
