Mom and Her (Damn) Cat

Last Sunday, May 22, mom fell again. This time, despite my attempts to avoid it, she was hospitalized. They ran the usual battery of tests. Not surprisingly, mom had another urinary tract infection. What was surprising is that it occurred less than a week after she finished the antibiotic for the last UTI. And then we got the big news: mom had fractured her hip and jaw. It’s quite possible this happened in the last fall, but they missed it. In fact, the x-ray report said as much.

When she fell last time and the nurse thought she may have fractured her hip, I pondered then what we would do if mom was faced with having surgery. Given the progression of her dementia, I didn’t think she’d do well with surgery, anesthesia, or rehab. Given her co-morbidities (dementia, diabetes, and deep vein thrombosis), I wondered whether she’d be a candidate for surgery. The last time she fell, we didn’t have to make that decision. As it turns out, we wouldn’t have to make that decision this time, either.

Mom’s hip fracture was non-displaced so the orthopedic doctor said surgery was not indicated at this time. He said he’d put her on partial toe-touch weight-bearing (TTWB) for six weeks and then see her in his office for repeat x-rays and examination. I explained to the ortho doctor’s physicians’ assistant (PA) that we could not explain to mom what TTWB meant or how to do it. They switched her to non-weight-bearing for six weeks. I then asked if we could do a mobile x-ray rather than having her come in. The PA insisted he needed to see her. As for the fractured mandible, it was only minimally displaced and did not seem to be bothering mom. So no surgery or treatment was indicated for it, either.

The first couple of days after mom was admitted, she spoke little. I stayed in Austin, but kept in close contact by phone. The nurses would hold the phone up to mom’s ear, and I would talk to her. Once or twice she would answer “yes” or “no.” By day three or four, the nurses and my sister were reporting that mom wasn’t talking at all. But she was eating, always a hopeful sign.

On Tuesday, my sister informed me that she would be leaving Friday to go to Galveston for the Memorial Weekend.

After discussions with the nursing staff at her assisted living (AL), as well as the PA for mom’s geriatric physician, we decided it was time for mom to be evaluated by hospice. With the hip fracture and mom becoming increasingly non-verbal, the consensus was mom would almost certainly be accepted. I finally had the opening I’d been waiting for to have the hospice discussion with my sister. After much texting and a few calls, my sister agreed with the hospice evaluation.

Mom’s AL worked with several different hospice facilities. The nurse they liked the best said she didn’t have the time to give my mom the attention she needed with her current case load. I then selected a hospice provider that had been doing mom’s home health, thinking the transition would be easier that way. The evaluating nurse went to the hospital, looked at mom’s chart, talked to mom, and called me after the visit.

“Your mom is ineligible for hospice. She is not terminal.”

Despite the fact that the hospital nurses and my sister said mom was non-verbal, this nurse insisted she’d had a conversation with my mother. Rather than talking with her primary doctor who’d been seeing her for the past two years and talking with the nursing staff at AL, where she’d been living for the past three years, she made the decision based only on mom’s hospital chart. So, mom was deemed not a candidate for hospice at this time. A decision that surprised her primary doctor, who’d written the orders for the evaluation, as well as the nurses at her AL and the nurses at the hospital where she currently was admitted.

The hospital wanted her out as there was nothing more that needed doing. The AL couldn’t take her back due to the fractures and her inability to transfer. The hospital, I am certain in an attempt to buy us some time, said she needed five more days of IV antibiotics, and so would write orders to send her to skilled nursing. If mom did not improve within those five days, they suggested we get a second hospice evaluation. That was the plan as of Thursday. Meanwhile, I’d made several calls to the AL nursing staff, as well as mom’s primary care PA. The PA said she was going to re-review mom’s chart with hospice-care criteria in mind. The AL nurse said she was going to call a different hospice with whom they have worked, and discuss mom with them.

Friday morning I got a call from another hospice service. They talked with me about mom and her history, and said they’d like to meet with us. I had planned to drive to Houston Friday afternoon, but another round of severe storms was rolling through, so I delayed my trip until Saturday morning. I planned to meet with the hospice representative at noon in mom’s hospital room.

Since mom’s house was now empty in the wake of the estate sale, I packed my car with things I’d need to stay the weekend. I bought an air mattress, a coffee maker, and a soft furry bunny at Target. I packed towels and sheets and coffee. I filled a cooler with Greek yogurt and blueberries. I arranged for the pet sitter to take care of the kitties (now, four) and give Sadie her subcutaneous fluids. Saturday morning, I headed to Houston, unsure of what lie ahead.

I arrived at the hospital thirty minutes before the scheduled meeting. Mom was asleep. She didn’t awaken when I greeted her, or when I kissed her, or when I stroked her cheek. The nurse told me mom had eaten about twenty percent of her breakfast, and they’d bring lunch soon and I could try again. I gave mom her bunny, “a bunny for my honey bunny,” I told her. She didn’t awaken until the caregivers came in to change her. She seemed to register my presence, but the bunny made no impression. Now that she was awake, when I gave her kisses and stroked her cheek, she smiled. Her skin was so soft. Her smile beautific.

The hospice representative arrived on schedule and we sat in the window seat of mom’s hospital room and talked about their services and whether mom qualified. The representative thought she did but she would call her nurse to be certain, and if there was any question, the nurse would come and meet with mom before making the decision. She too seemed perplexed that mom was deemed to not qualify by the prior hospice provider. The hospice representative left the room to make calls and review mom’s chart. They brought mom lunch and I fed her. She had a few bites of mashed potatoes, and a few bites of turkey. I mashed up the turkey with a fork to make it easier to chew, imagining I was the mama bird and she was the baby bird. I opted not to go full-on mama bird, using a fork to mash it rather than pre-chewing it for her. Mom also ate some fruit, the grapes being the easiest to chew.

Mid-fruit-cup, the hospice representative returned and told me mom qualified and they’d accepted her. I filled out the paperwork. I filled out the out-of-hospital DNR (do not resuscitate). Because hospice had accepted mom, her AL would take her back. She wouldn’t have to go to skilled nursing and undergo yet another disorienting move. I updated my sister by text. I got a one-word response: “OK.” Within thirty minutes of the hospice representative leaving, the EMTs showed up with their gurney to transport mom back to her AL apartment and her cat. By early Saturday afternoon she was settled back into familiar surroundings, with familiar caregivers, the cat standing guard.

Mom seemed pleased to be back. She smiled more. She followed me around the room with her eyes. She stared at me and smiled. I brought the cat to her bed and helped her stroke him. She seemed more interested in looking at me than the cat. I took that as a sign that I am indeed her favorite child, even over the cat. The highlight of the afternoon was giving mom kisses and stroking her cheek, and watching her smile and her eyes light up as I did so.

Late in the afternoon, the hospice nurse came by and we went through the initial plan of care. More papers to sign. More information to absorb. The nurse would come by one to two times a week to check her vitals and give her a full examination. An aide would come by three times a week to bathe mom, wash her hair, take care of her nails, put lotion on her, change her sheets (once a week minimum), and massage her. We were assigned a social worker and a chaplain. Hospice ordered a better bed for mom with an air mattress, a bedside table, and an oxygen machine, should that become necessary. All of those items arrived within hours. The EMTs came back to move her from her old bed to her new bed.

Despite all hospice does, and despite the excellent care mom gets at AL, she needed more care than they would be giving. While Medicare pays 100 percent of hospice, the benefit does not include continuous care. Nor does the AL. I would need to hire an aide at mom’s cost to watch over her and assist in her care. The hospice social worker provided referrals and I managed to get care in place, despite it being Memorial Weekend. I made sure they knew about the cat, and that the aide would be expected to take over cat care.

Everything was done. Mom was sleeping. I’d decided to stay in mom’s AL apartment that night, rather than going to her empty house. I went out to the car and got my bags and the coffee maker. I set up the new coffee maker and made a pot. I ate some yogurt and blueberries. I brushed the cat, who was starved for attention having been alone for a week. We settled in on the love seat to watch a Harry Potter marathon on television.

Mom slept well and snored like a lumberjack for most of the night. The caregivers came in every two hours to check on her and change her if she was wet. I slept minutes at a time. Mostly I was awake, watching Harry and his friends defeat He Who Must Not Be Named.

In the morning, my sister began accosting me with text messages, second-guessing everything I’d done.

“Wouldn’t mom be better off at a nursing home where she can get twenty-four hour care?”

“I am not sending mom to a nursing home,” I wrote back. “She will do better in familiar surroundings with her cat.”

Then she called me. She put me on speaker. Her daughter and her husband were in the room. Suddenly I was being ganged up on by my sister’s family. And I was a force of one; no daughter or husband to meet them in numbers.

“Why didn’t grandma go to the nursing home for antibiotics?” my niece demanded. “The plan was one thing, and then suddenly we’re being told it’s entirely different. We all have a stake in this. We all care about grandma.”

“Stop yelling at me.”

Which is as far as I let my temper go. What I wanted to say was, “Fuck every one of you. And if you were so fucking concerned, you’d be here helping me make these plans, instead of at the beach for Memorial Weekend.” Instead, I patiently explained that mom was getting the care she needs, hospice had a plan of care in place, and that, coupled with the private aide and AL caregivers, would be a much higher level of care than she would get at the nursing home. I reminded them of the care my father got in the nursing home, and how heartbreaking that whole experience was. I told them mom would be better off in familiar surroundings with her cat.

“I don’t care about the damn cat,” my sister said. “I want her to get the level of care she needs.”

“She is getting the level of care she needs,” I said. “I was here all night. She slept. They checked on her every two hours. They changed her. The private aide will be here this afternoon. I’ll meet with her and give her instructions. She will stay until 7:00. Starting tomorrow, we will have a private aide from 7:00 a.m. to 7:00 p.m.”

My niece jumped in: “How can she be left alone? What if she decides to try to walk again and she falls again? That would be a disaster.”

“If you saw her you would not be worried about that. She’s bedridden. She’s not going to try to walk. She’s too weak. She can’t even feed herself. She’s not talking. She’s sleeping all day and all night except when we wake her to feed her or change her. I approved bed rails so she can’t fall out of bed. If she starts moving, they’ll lower the bed and put mats on the floor beside the bed.”

My sister’s turn: “If she was at the nursing home, we wouldn’t have to pay for her apartment or the private caregiver. This is expensive.”

“Mom has money,” I told her. “She can afford to do this for quite a while. She needs familiar surroundings and faces. She needs familiar caregivers. When the night aides came in last night, she smiled at them. They talked to her. You could tell she knew them. And you could tell they care about her.”

“This is a lot of money.”

Finally, I heard my brother-in-law say, “It’s not about money.”

“Well, what if she runs out of money?” my sister said.

“She can afford this for a while,” I said. “I’ll run some projections next week when I’m back at the office.”

“Well, you should go out and look at nursing homes while you’re there and find one to move her to when the time comes.”

“No, I’m not going to do that. I have enough to do right now. Not to mention, I want to sit with mom. I want to spend time with her.”

I didn’t bother to tell her Medicare would pay for only 100 days of skilled nursing, and after that we would be on self-pay and nursing home costs are more expensive than AL costs. And with the shitty care at nursing homes, we’d likely want to pay for a private aide, just like I’d set up at AL. My sister continued to bombard me with orders, including making arrangements to move mom into a smaller, less expensive AL apartment since we now had a hospital bed in the television room. She insisted we no longer need “all that space.” I told her I’d consider that at a later time. Right now, I was focused on getting mom settled in and comfortable in the home she’s lived in for the past three years.

Meanwhile, my mother was sleeping in the next room, blissfully unaware of what an asshole my sister is. It has become more evident with each passing day why my mom made me her decision-maker. And by God, I am going to make the decisions no matter how many members of her family gang up on me. Luckily, my niece and brother-in-law both seemed to come around by the end of the call. They seemed to understand that familiarity of surroundings and comfort are key, and that even though my sister doesn’t give a damn about the cat, my mother does. Mom made herself clear on Mother’s Day that she wants to be with her cat and she wants to eat pie. I had now reunited mom with her cat. After the private aide arrived, I went to the bakery and got mom a big slice of chocolate cream pie.

And now, having made it through the transition to this new phase, we settle in and wait for what’s next. The hospice certification means they believe mom will not be with us for more than six months. My sense is, they are correct. Especially if mom continues to be non-verbal and if she is unable to begin ambulating after her six weeks of healing of the hip fracture. I don’t think she will walk again. I don’t think she’ll be with us long enough to run out of money. If she does, I’ll pay for her care. I’ll pay to keep her home at assisted living with her damn cat.

Mom petting her damn cat
Mom petting her damn cat





  • What an ordeal! And – if the weather channel is to be believed – during horrid rains & floods, no less!
    As per my research, a cat’s purrs are therapeutic, so I’m hoping that her cat”s presence will boost your mother’s healing process.

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    • The weather on Friday was something. Luckily the flooding had gone down and the roads I needed on Saturday were passable. The medical supply guy had some trouble, but eventually made it. You are spot on: cats are therapeutic. Thank you, Jeanne!

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        • I would be ecstatic with just the latter. If my sister also is supportive, I’d have hit the jackpot. I am hopeful sister will come around when she’s had time to adjust. So far today, she’s criticized the aide and my not giving her enough tasks to keep her from “sitting around watching tv.” I might have to kick her ass before this is over. 😉

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          • I often wonder how my own sister thinks … and if she’s smoking something strange … she can get the oddest perspective on things. Alas, a daughter also thinks like she does, so apparently this isn’t chemical induced – just illogical.

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  • You are 1000% right on the nose about everything. Bless you; everyone should have you as “oarsman” through the transition. Sending strength and peace.

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  • For the first time, I’m glad to be an only child and not have to deal with siblings! Hang in there, thinking of you and wishing the best for everyone involved.


    • Siblings would be okay if they were helpful. I was relieved when she said she wouldn’t be around for the weekend. I thought I’d be given a reprieve from her barking orders at me. I should have known better. Thank you for the well wishes, Maggy.

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  • I find it relaxing to hear my cats purr, or even just to pet them. You have your Mom’s best interests at heart and I can’t believe your sister attitude and actions. And, you know, just because they send you a text doesn’t mean you have to answer it 😉

    It’s totally obvious why Mom picked you to make decisions for her – no contest. Hang in there.


    • Me too, Donna. My cats have been an important source of comfort to me over the past several difficult years. I got the “damn” cat for my mom and dad after their dog died and they were without a dog or cat for the first time since the early days of their marriage. The kitty provided comfort to my dad during his decline from Alzheimer’s, and he’s doing the same for my mom. Great point about ignoring her texts. I need to keep that option in mind! Thank you, Donna. 🙂


  • Three cheers for you and the damn cat. The best things your mother could have on her side. Such a pity your sister is so obstructive, but you’re doing great working around her.


  • That is a beautiful cat. What a mess. Glad you got it worked out. Good for you sticking to your guns. I am sure your mom is much happier with her cat.

    Hang in there!


    • He is a good looking cat, although a bit of a fatty. We’re working on that. It’s funny that at 53, I’m still being bossed around by my big sister. Except now I’m learning to ignore her orders. Thanks, Terre!


  • I read every word here and it brought back memories of my own mother – I was given the responsibility to make decisions. I have two older brothers and they were basically unsupportive during most of my parents’ decline. I am sorry you are being treat poorly. But you hold the reins and I love your confidence. It all comes from a place of love and caring. You do know best.

    Stand firm. The shit will hit the fan perhaps – but no matter what, inside you know you are doing what is best. When your mother is gone, you might have some PTSD issues from living through this stressful time. I just know you will be okay because you will remember those special moments of giving her treats and her cat to pet. So much love and it will stay with you.


    • You’re right, the confidence comes from knowing I’m caring for my mom with love. Hopefully my sister will come around given a bit more time. Her pushing back on hospice (after she’d agreed to the evaluation) probably comes from the six-month guideline. I get the feeling no one in her family understood Alzheimer’s is a terminal illness or how serious my mother’s recent decline actually is. She loves that damn cat!

      I do expect losing my mother is going to be the worst loss of my life. I am having trouble imagining her gone. Even though I’ve had years to prepare. There’s just no way to soften the blow.

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      • It isn’t even that your sister doesn’t love your mom. Some of it is denial – she isn’t prepared to deal with the tough stuff you are already going through.
        I always dreaded losing my mom – I think losing her incrementally with dementia was worse than her death. I was lonely and missed the mom who was my best friend.
        This must be a passage of life because I see how many friend my age are dealing with this. I wish I could say it won’t be awful losing her. But I can tell you that you’ve been mourning her more than you realize. You are already on that journey. Sending a hug.


        • My sister is a doer. She wants to fix my mom. She wants to keep sending her to the hospital and rehab and make it better. Denial is exactly right.
          The incremental losses are hard. Her not talking and seemingly not knowing who people are is difficult. The day she doesn’t seem to recognize me is coming. I’m just grateful to have had this time with her. I was absent for many years.
          Thank you, Judy. xo

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          • I so relate. When my mom broke her shoulder, she almost died from surgery complications. To this day, my brother tells me he is sorry he pressured me into rushing into that surgery. After that happened, I stood firm on every decision for my mom.
            I remember so well thinking what you are – that the day would come and she wouldn’t know me. It never happened. In fact, a few weeks before she died – she had a lucid time with me. It was shocking because I didn’t know she understood so much of what had been going on. I thought she was mute and sleeping when she understood more than I realized. She might go to that place of not recognizing you – or she might not. I think you are doing well staying in each moment and giving her as much tenderness and comfort as is humanly possible. I’ve met few daughters that were like me – but I count you to be one of them. I know it is rare, but it is a testament to the love you received from her as a child. Hang in there.

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  • Oh, dear! Sounds like your sister is a complete ingrate. Seriously. She should have canceled her plan to go away and gone with you to help you and your mother. Her husband and daughter could have done Memorial Day by themselves.

    As for the cat, it’s clearly not about the “damn cat,” but your mother’s need for a furry friend. I’m glad you put your foot down on that one too.

    I’m sorry you are going through this, but we’re here in cyberspace rooting for you.


    Kim G
    CDMX, México
    Where we are wondering what similarly situated people do, given the general lack of funds for such things.


    • Ingrate! What a perfect word. My sister does not let life get in the way of her plans. The cat is thrilled to be keeping watch over mom. And she has been able to give him pets from time to time.

      I’ve wondered a time or two what people do who don’t have the money for assisted living or to hire caregivers and such. I think they quit their jobs and move their loved ones into their homes, and do the best they can. I’ve actually contemplated doing that. Or at least move her in with me and hire a caregiver. But that would require mom to move and me to buy a house with a bedroom/bath on the first floor. If only we could understand how to manage these life events before we’re in the midst of the experience.

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      • Hola Ella! I worry about my mother. She has zero plans for her increasingly obvious aging. I nag her every year, but it doesn’t do any good. I don’t want to give up my life to take care of her, but I’m equally sure she doesn’t want to move to Boston or Mexico City or wherever either. A battle surely looms in my future. Saludos!

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  • Been there–done that. Luckily, my brothers and I were on the same page. This is an important piece to tell your readers that the primary caregiver needs to proceed ahead with confidence. There is no instruction manual to tell a family what to do. Each case is unique, but one person needs to be in charge as hard as it.


    • It certainly would make things easier if my sister and I were on the same page. But her pushing back does cause me to think good and hard about whether I’m doing the right thing. If anything, her philosophy on things has only increased my confidence. So I guess I have her to thank for that.


  • Being very new to Blogging I’m not sure this response is according to the “rules”. However, I AM moved to speak to you as a friend in effort to ease your HEART and mind. I worked with Alzheimer Patients and in Nursing Homes many years and have witnessed first hand how hard it is on the family to see their loved ones degenerate so quickly, right before their eyes. I found the responses of many family members are derived from guilt rather than understanding and compassion. I didn’t “feel” they were aware of that – that they thought they were acting in Love when taking away something a dying person finds enjoyment in because it may kill them. Or force feeding someone who is dying and in terrible agony yet unable to leave the body they are trapped in except by refusing food. I am so grateful she has you to defend and protect her. Your decisions have been right every step of the way! At this stage, Hospice is the best solution, in my opinion. Having also volunteered with them, I am convinced most that work in this field are totally dedicated to their work and devoted care-givers. Of course there are always exceptions, but you persevered and found the right ones for your Mother. I would say, if I were so privileged as to be your Mother, “Thank you, my Dear, for all you have done in my behalf.” and that I love you all the more for it. Since she can’t speak for herself, please let this be her gift to you through me.
    From my HEART to your HEART in Love,


    • Oh, Betty. This is such a beautiful and welcome comment. You have indeed eased my heart and mind. My mother and I had some bumpy times while my father was alive, and I am so grateful to have received the gift of time since he died. Time for us to heal old wounds and reconnect in love. Even though she can’t tell me, I can see it in her smiling eyes. And when she returns my kisses. While dementia is heartbreaking, it has given us time so say hello, and goodbye.

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